Saturday, 22 March 2014

Life Isn't Fair

I hate M.E. 

Whilst I'm laying in bed, eyes stinging from exhaustion and needing sleep, legs and back in nearly unbearable pain, trying not to have to take a morphine tablet, my girls are getting ready for the night ahead to celebrate Lauren's birthday. Birthdays remind me more than any other time of year that I'm not well. I wanna be enjoying myself with my best friends, celebrating and getting dressed up and having a drink. Today, I can't even go to Lauren's for an hour before the girls hit the town. 

I am feeling so left out and annoyed at M.E for not letting me socialise with my friends and have fun. Lately, I am trying hard to surrender, and not do things that are going to make me feel even worse than normal, but with that comes loneliness, frustration and sadness. 

I'm feeling very hard done by and want to say "it's not fair!" I know life isn't fair (although I definitely don't want someone else to tell me that!!)

I hope my girls have a brilliant night! I'm going to try to sleep now so I can escape the pain, 

Take care, 

Rachel x 

2 comments:

  1. Hang in there Rach - I am here for you always. You are the strongest and bravest person I know. Love you xxx

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